Chapter 1: Park Minseo
It’s wretched.
It means ‘in a state that’s not smooth and going through all kinds of difficulties.’
Specifically, my stream is like that.
“Um… Since the enemy jungler seems to be top, I’ll recall even if I take a bit of lane loss here.”
– But honestly, if I had to date one LoL champion, wouldn’t it be Neeko?
– For real, the fun of choosing would be insane.
“He’s holding the lane. Since the top camps are being cleared, going there would just get denied, so I’ll pivot to bottom roam.”
– But honestly, Neeko probably smells a bit.
– Doesn’t the smell change when the appearance changes?
– That’s not in the settings. It would be nice if the smell changed too.
[Noooox–us!]
Sion’s ultimate.
The resounding roar of the unstoppable onslaught fills the canyon.
Thinking I used my skill for recall, the enemy Lucian and Nami were pushing the lane without much thought.
[An enemy has been slain!]
As a result, together with the jungler aiming for a bottom gank at the right timing, we succeeded in killing both Lucian and Nami.
An ideal play that could be said to have changed the direction of a normally disadvantageous game.
If it were another streamer’s broadcast, plays like this would be flooded with ‘wa’ ‘kya’ ‘pya’ and such—
– Isn’t the smell something you can endure?
– I can’t stand smells though. I dumped my ex-girlfriend because she smelled.
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– Let’s kick that bastard.
– These f*cking normie bastards, was all that wretched pretending just a lie?
“No, kids. I just killed bottom right now. Talk about the game a bit. I’ll temp ban that bastard for now. Normies deserve to die, yeah.”
– Kya, ban was lit.
– But you’re not gonna talk about the game?
– It’s plat smurf section anyway, why watch?
– Wa kya pya. Sion was lit. There, Joseph. Now back to Neeko talk.
“These f*cking sh*tty bastards.”
But what the viewers say does have some truth.
If you search my streamer nickname ‘Joseph’ on Namu Wiki, it roughly says this.
[Joseph (Streamer)]
[A top laner from Challenger as a Sion one-trick, who even appeared on a famous YouTuber’s father-in-law invitation segment a few years ago.
Now that it’s been nearly 2 years since Sion became a 5-tier trash champ, he doesn’t stick to one-trick like before.
However, after Sion got nerfed, he hasn’t achieved Challenger even once.
He’s become a special express ghost eternally shuttling between Grandmaster and Master tiers.
He likes Jujutsu Kaisen suspiciously much.]
Excluding the unnecessary footnote at the end, it means I’m a Master/Grandmaster top laner from ex-Challenger.
It’s natural that viewers aren’t interested in the game content when such a high-elo user is smurfing in Platinum.
But why is such a person playing in Platinum?
…Because I deleted my account.
Disease. The end of the world. Filth. The worst trash ever that’s bad for both mind and body.
The reason I got mentally ill. The radioactive substance that turned incels into the worst demons.
It was 2 weeks ago that I decided to quit League of Legends.
With the stream on, I boldly deleted my LoL account that I had used for nearly 10 years, level 972.
I declared that from now on, variety games, just chatting, mukbang, or health outdoor streams would be the main content.
Borrowing the trendy term, I aimed for a ‘healthy’ broadcast.
And 10 days after that bold declaration.
I had no choice but to hurriedly create a new League of Legends account.
Because the average viewers dropped from 150 to 50.
– Lol who told you to delete the account?
– We all tried to stop you, but who went crazy and deleted it alone?
– ‘I’ll never play LoL again’ <<- Actual words said.
“Shut up shut up shut up shut up!”
I screamed into the mic.
“This game is the bad one! I’m not at fault!”
Of course, the chat only returned mockery laughing at me.
– Lol again with the PC.
– For real, no one’s as gross as a guy with PC.
– Hurry and climb to D1. Then we’ll watch focused lol.
– Still, it’s more watchable than when you were doing viewer games vs AI to hit account level 30.
These demons.
They must be enjoying watching me suffer in this hell on earth (aka. League of Legends).
But as someone who made streaming my full-time job, there’s no helping it.
If there were many viewers when I do the broadcast I want, fine, but since it’s clear that’s not the case, I have no choice but to do what the viewers want.
Not just streamers, but everyone born into the world and living as a member of society is the same.
You can’t live doing only what you want.
…Except for the golden spoons who succeeded in the sperm gacha.
Anyway.
The game that none of the 150 viewers care about continues.
Even while winning big in the dragon teamfight, taking Baron, and breaking the enemy’s inhibitors, no one talked about the game.
“…Wretched.”
How did only these wretched guys remain in my stream?
Even after streaming about 10 hours yesterday and 10 today, total 20 hours, the donations that came in were only 52,000 won.
In hourly wage, around 2,500 won.
Barely half of half the minimum wage.
On top of that, 90% of those donations’ content was—
[Gyeodeurangi Joha has donated 10,000 won.]
[Ahri, the spirit living in the forests of Ionia, had one worry. As she started blending into human society, the smell from her armpits began to bother her. To erase this smell, Ahri—[More]]
This kind of abnormal fetish.
– Armpit ha
– Armpit lord is here.
– More.
– I clicked more but the content doesn’t show, is it a bug.
A vicious viewer who always sends long donations related to armpits.
‘Gyeodeurangi Joha’
In another major stream, it wouldn’t be strange to ban him immediately—
“Ah, Gyeodeurangi Joha-nim! Thanks for the 10,000 won donation!”
He was also the viewer who donated the most money to my stream recently.
Out of 52,000 won, no, including the recent 10,000, out of 62,000 won, ‘Gyeodeurangi Joha’ shot 60,000.
In a way, it’s no exaggeration to say this abnormal fetishist is sustaining my livelihood.
– Does Ahri smell though?
– She has fur, so probably smells.
– Then Zyra smells like grass?
[Victory!]
Even as the enemy’s Nexus exploded, the chat was still talking about champions’ smells.
Occasionally mixed in were debates about whether Neeko would still have female parts if transformed into a male.
Staring at this chat 10 hours a day makes me feel like my mind is getting polluted.
The fact that the one who created this twisted and horrific chat is ultimately myself fills me with self-loathing.
“…I’ll end the stream here today.”
I let out a light deep sigh and declared the end.
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– Don’t go.
– Abandoning us?
– It’s only 3 AM and you’re ending already? F*ck, I’ll write Park Min-seo in my suicide note and just die.
“No, you f*cking bastards. All day you’ve been talking only about Neeko and f*cking, what abandon. Either focus on the game.”
– Vladimir ON lol The river will be dyed in blood. lol
– Either focus on the game (while playing Platinum 1 rank)
– Crazy money-hungry bastard ending the stream right after the chairman gives dinner money.
– Venoms: Yeah go. Just f*ck off. Don’t come back.
“Don’t come back? Excuse me ‘Venoms’-nim! Can you take responsibility for those words?”
– Gasp.
– Hey hey!!! Venoms!!!
– Mode ult ON
– Venoms: If this bastard comes back tomorrow like this, like if lol
“Like. Then I’m really going, bye.”
After finishing the worthless chit-chat, I ended the stream.
I turn off the computer, have a light meal, then finish showering.
While fiddling with my phone and lurking on shorts, before I know it, the sun is rising outside the window.
“…Time to sleep.”
Soon it’ll be time for the family to prepare for work.
It’ll just be uncomfortable if we run into each other, so I need to fall asleep before that.
As I close my eyes, various thoughts soon swirl in my mind.
It’s been nearly 3 years since I started streaming. In terms of years, 4th year?
The record for max concurrent viewers is 2000, but recent average is around 150.
YouTube was on the rise with 30,000 subs, but due to the editor quitting, it’s been neglected for 6 months.
Definitely not rock bottom, but absolutely not big league broadcast scale.
Between 2nd and 3rd tier, the chat quality is the abyss itself.
I didn’t intend to make the chat like this.
It would be a lie to say I didn’t contribute, but what streamer in the world would intentionally make their stream atmosphere like this!
For reference, monthly average income is about 1.3 million won, and even that’s unstable.
A 26-year-old man with no education or specs.
Self-loathing creeps up from my chest.
“…Wretched.”
That’s me.
The current position of the streamer Joseph (real name Park Min-seo).
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